Ayam, Kambing dan Beg.

Finally, I'm back online. After a few weeks of computer-less day I finally decided to salvaged an old house computer combined with a few part from my dead computer. The Windows is running but as expected the performance is a disaster. Lagging here and there even just for a simple task. I did tried update the driver, software, directX and all, but unfortunately there seems a virus that is prevent me to do so and it is beyond my expertise to repair it manually by command prompt even though it was properly instructed.

Apparently this salvaged computer seems to belong to some organization which automatically prevent the user from reformatting the system by prompting a password. Maybe I should swap the primary hard disk with my old hard disk. And if somehow the result is the appearance of the blue screen of death or even worse, some unknown component fried up like before, then I'm totally fucked up once again.

Well, I did made a proposal for a new set of computer like a spoiled rich kid. I am spoiled, but unfortunately I wasn't rich. It is already over six month since then, and I did proved my worthiness twice, sadly other than a few line of proud appreciation, I didn't received anything in return. Still it is better than nothing.

Oh, I can't wait to finish my studies and get a decent job and make a load of decent money. It just that I wasn't specially built to do vigorous low paid job. Trust me, I have tried. It's not about the ability to stand for hours, its all about ego and mindset. For the ego part, I couldn't help it but to think that my manager have less intelligence than mine. So according to that, I can't felt any inferior at all rather some stupid 'just-you-wait-superior-feelings' thought. And for the mindset part, It is rare to find someone who I can talked to. They'll just talk about the same thing which I can't digest any single thing from it. And I look like one dumb fucker out there. Is it just me that feel that way?

Well, it is not that I just befriended with the people who have the same mindset as mine. It is just that their mindset is on a different wavelength than mine. Just like VHF and UHF which both is on a way too different level but both is the darn telly signal of some sort. Oh, dammit!
I just wish a computer would fall from the sky for me now. But on second thought, please include a wooden box attached with a parachute so the computer will still in one piece when I receive them.

"You know what a chazzer is? That's a pig that don't fly straight!!" - Antonio 'Tony' Montana, Scarface.