I Hate Monday Shirt.

I hate Monday! I really hate it because I have to wake up early and iron my clothes. And after that I need to drive to work and the freaking traffic is killing me. My boss wouldn't stop piling me with all the shitty task. And I need to pay all of my bills by the end of this month. And off course I will be short on cash. God, I seriously need to escape from all of this. Take a break on some island or what ever. I just want my life back!

Unfortunately, I am still not qualified to say all of these. And I think it is rather stupid to wear 'I Hate Monday' shirt whereby my class start at 2pm every Monday.

Lately, I have a little bit awkward feeling to stop being a student and I seems can't wait for my graduation day thus find myself a fucking job. I think I am tired of all these student affairs. The taste of getting the highest score in test doesn't intrigue myself anymore. It is not like I scored the highest mark every time, but I just doesn't feel the joy anymore.

Honestly, I am not saying that I'm not pleased when everyone praised for my achievement. Because for me, people will start to evaluate you differently once you do something beyond expectations. And I can say that I am proud with myself now. I never felt so in control like this before in my life.

But as you feel that you can control something very well, you will tend to find something more challenging. And that is where I started to think of working life. And I already heard numerous complained about it. But the thing is, I love to get busy. So when I got thrown by tonnes of work, I will not whine like it is all sort of bullshit.

And yes, I am still doesn't completely grab the situation just yet. And that makes me wonder how bullshit it can be? I mean, don't you love to do something you're paid for? Currently, I am doing all sort of difficult task and doesn't get paid any single penny for it. By difficult I mean is to study. Everybody hate to study doesn't it? Show me one single soul who love to study and I will paste 'THE GEEK' on his forehead.

In control. From my past experience, as a leader of a project, it is not easy to control the team members. And when my roll as a member, I found that I could argue with the leader as long as I have a strong reasoning for what I fight for. And I know sometimes I need to accept others opinion too. So, I wasn't always in a dire confrontation about anything. You know, something is decided for our own good, unless it is a clear mistake, then you have to fight for it.

I know, someday I will confront with the hierarchy issues. I'm the boss, you just a mere pawn. If you don't want to work here, get the fuck out of my building. That sort of shit. I know this could be harsh but this is where the term 'Tong Sampah' (as given by Kecik) is applied. Just do your best as a good 'garbage container' and in the mean time look for some other means to pleased your boss. Give him some professional attitude. Show him how great yourself is.

I was't talking gibberish. I already prove these experiment. The title is, 'How To Impress People Professionally'. Haha.. here it goes.

When I was back in MMU, I was some kind of loser who never actually achieve anything. Lower than your Average Joe. And I wasn't taken seriously in what ever I have suggested. When it is time for lab or group assignment, it is such a difficult task to find someone who are willing to grouped with me. They think I am too fucking stupid and easily forsaken me. And you should never called that a 'friend'. Fuck all the thought of forming a league of superheroes. You just want to save your own ass instead of helping a friend in need.

And now, the smell is totally different in MFI. My dressing is still the same as before. The 'DUMB' first impression is well shown. I guess that is not dumb, just invisible. And so, when I did something beyond of others expectation, including myself, all eyes are on me. It is like you living in a Broadway, under a limelight beside a pole across the street and you tap dancing with an umbrella happily. It is no longer difficult to find a groupmate, the top scorer are smiling at you, the lecturer praise you and all sort of wonderful things.

And now I never deserted anyone. No matter how unreliable they're. I never make the same mistake as that asswipe before or else I will be just like him. But sometimes I am stuck between a promise and another promise. And besides, the class here are much smaller than my previous one which it is impossible to to get to know each other unless a few circle of friends. And I am glad I decided to change my course of history but I never regret being there before.

Okay, that's it! So much for the working class analogy and my sudden stupid urges. Tally-ho!


"Karma police, arrest this man, he talks in maths. He buzzes like a fridge, he's like a detuned radio." - Radiohead, Karma Police.