Decayed.

This very significant day is just like any other day except it was branded as mine by my folks. And I'm quite content about it. But since when I started to see logic in life, I begin to wonder, shouldn't these very day belong to our mother who suffered the most hardship to bring us to this world? And partly belongs to our dad for worrying like a mad man.

Hmm.. What have I accomplished so far? None. I will not say it is too late but nothing is too early these days. I am still up for the chase. It is like chasing something mythical which is maybe someday will come to exist. But there is one chasing mission that I failed miserably this year and I think that will never ever happen. And so I thought maybe the subject put an invisible cloak which made the subject hard to detect these days. Nevermind that, I am a man of my word. I will never chicken out when the time comes.

Well, this year certainly is a bit different. I'm not used to so many wishes from others but suddenly I got a few. Well not a lot but at least people do take notice of me for something I had done in the past. And that is what technology is for. Instead of gifts, wishes is good enough for me. I am dude, all my good friends are dude, so just keep things simple. Haha. But I still feel a wee bit unhappy. I got my family, and I got a lot of good friends but I still don't have a special one. Well, I will not judge myself for being picky. You lot should have known that I would choose the best for myself for my faith is too expensive for today modern age. Hey, I carried out this legacy, and I know better than anyone. The only problem is to choose.

You know 7 more years until the D-day is quite a long time. Given by 5 years of freedom to choose on the ocean. And enough about that. I probably should focus on my study first. I mean my assignment to be exact. There is no such thing as I care for my studies. We all learn in school just for the sake of society that needs a piece of embossed paper as an approval for our sanity. So, as for today I'm polish my goals. I will continue to chase for her and at the same time I will not abandon my future and I will change my habits when the time comes. For now I am what I am and I'm proud of it.

It is still my season of freedom. I can dress however I want. I can do whatever I want. I can go wherever I want. I can sleep whenever I want. And I can praise or loathe whoever I want before I need to put a huge barrier for the sake of my love. It is a bit clingy but that is how the commitment should be.

"Excuse me while I tend to how I feel." - Metallica, Hero of The Day.